It is crazy the different types of temptations you have toward sin in the different chapters of life you have. Sin that you feel like you have mortified springs up again and sin that you never struggled with becomes a struggle.
The devil is so smart in these ways.
I have found myself mortifying more sin down here than how my life use to be.
Please cry out in prayer for me.
Doubts fill my head daily, overworking can sometimes be the death of your spiritual life. Pleasing others is exhausting and sometimes not beneficial. Learning a new language in a new culture. I am realizing that Rome was not built in a day. Development is not the same as relief work. Development takes time, development means building relationships with people. Development means entering into the culture, finding a local church, planting seeds, getting to know the community. And being in it for the long hull. Which is difficult and hard because we are humans, we all are battling with the flesh daily. We all will disappoint, we all will hurt each other.
I was telling my employees one day, "I don't want people to walk in here and say "wow look at those perfect christians working here", no I want people to see wow these are imperfect people who love their Lord and want to serve Him."
We aren't called to be perfect, we are called to strive for it. It's a daily uphill battle. But we are called to put on our armor and fight the good fight.
It's hard to work together in any environment. But development everywhere is getting to know people, sharing their joys, their hurts, their disappointments.
I have a lot of temptations and doubts that arise all the time but that is when I trust in Him the most. He has me here for a purpose and I am willing to be used.
"Be not deceived, Wormwood, our cause is never more in jeopardy than when a human, no longer desiring but still intending to do our Enemy's will, looks round upon a universe in which every trace of Him seems to have vanished, and asks why he has been forsaken, and still obeys.”
Above all He is faithful and I give up on Him way faster than He ever gives up on me.
The Cafe is doing well, American groups are down here this month so we are all exhausted, but we are cheerful in our work. I am networking with some other organizations down here and I have even met a Dominican lady who wants to start an organic community garden with me. The americans are building a house for one of our supported missionaries Ana and she is beyond excited. You should see her out there in her skirt and shoes with a pick digging right along side of them. Talk about a servant heart!
Keep Hato Mayor in your prayers this month. There is still so many that are lost. The gospel is needed here so desperately.
